Finding Clarity

There once was a girl who loved to pretend she knew what she wanted to be when she grew up. She liked trying on other people’s professions and couldn’t quite put her finger on one that resonated with her. She noticed how pleased people were when she tried their professions on for size. But it lead her into trap – a trap of pleasing other people. She couldn’t figure out for the longest time why she wasn’t able to find something that made her heart sing.

And that’s when she discovered she was listening to other people’s hearts long before her own. She had been entranced by their singing hearts. She went on a journey to try and find somewhere she could listen to her own beating heart. Alone and high up in the mountains, out in the deep blue ocean, along the wide open plains. She practiced getting in touch with who she really was and what her heart had to say.

She kept searching and searching for something that filled her up. Something that aligned with her unique gifts and talents. Something that felt like a natural part of her. She became more aware and appreciative of who she was. But the more she desperately tried searching for Clarity, the harder the path felt.

Then one day, Clarity just showed up. The girl hadn’t gone anywhere special. She wasn’t in the mountains, out at sea or in a meadow. She was around a couple of people in a coffee shop. It was there she realized that when she had finally given up and trusted that if Clarity was going to show up she will.  And she did!

Clarity wasn’t how the girl pictured or imagined her – in fact, Clarity was a mirror reflection of herself. It was in that quiet moment, the one where trying is forgotten and acceptance of the now this wonderful being appeared. 

Sometimes we have to go to quiet places in our mind to find our own Clarity.

 
 

A Community Full of Possibilities

When my husband suddenly died, I was on a mission to find a new community. One that I felt at home with. One that didn’t look at grief as a problem to be solved, a series of steps to be taken as a means to conquer it. I wanted a resonate connection. I wanted to feel and embrace grief and look at it as a gift. One filled with possibilities and experience. One that recognized the trauma but also provided light. I felt alone in my quest but strong in my resolve.
I remember a friend’s child asked, “Why does she seem so happy, mom?”
As hard as it was to loose Ryan, I knew I had a choice. I could sit at home in a dark house, blinds drawn, shutting the world out. I understood right away that I could choose how to view grief. I could shrivel up and die; I could view it as a problem, one that needed to be solved; or I could choose to live life to the fullest and share my gift with my community.
I went into hunting mode to find others who viewed grief in the way I choose. I craved answers. The University of Washington bookstore had many books on grief, some of which have revolutionized how our culture addresses death and dying. They focused on death as a problem to overcome. The conversation continued in a comfortable way, explaining how one deals with trauma. This new issue you are facing in your life is a problem and lucky for you, we have many books on how to solve it. I picked up book after book, read the insert and put them back.
Our culture is obsessed with problems and problem solving. Media, linguistics,and judgements are all based on problems. We are bombarded with messages about the problems in our community. The problem with our leaders, the problem with society, the problem with problems, death was a problem.
I grew frustrated, quickly. I searched for possibilities and gifts inside of books and groups that I could resonate with. Only a handful of books put grief as a gift into perspective. I wanted more. I wanted the majority of books to have that insight. I didn’t give up, reading as many books as I could get my hands on. I talked to as many widows as I could. I couldn’t quite put my finger on why we viewed grief so differently. And then tonight, I had an AHA moment.
I never viewed grief as a problem to be solved. It just was. It’s a deep human emotion, the loss of another. Yet in it is numbing beauty, a gift. One that may not be wrapped in pretty paper, tidal waves or digestible lumps. No, grief has to be felt – to it’s abundant depths, to its soul searching heights. And as you emerge from the abyss, transformation occurs.
We need a paradigm shift toward death. It’s the driving force behind my book and why I am writing Leaping Into Lovers Lane.
I never viewed Ryan’s death as an issue to be dealt with. I didn’t get angry. Even while rocked to my core and those dark, dark days, I knew light was a possibility. I accepted that I was experiencing this for a reason. A grand plan in the Universe. One that may not make sense at the time, and feel like a heavy toll to pay, but one that I accepted. One that I owned. One that I viewed as an amazing gift.
I view grief as a pathway to limitless possibilities. And I’ve found applying that mindset helps everything in life. It has brought joyous abundance, rich experiences and unconditional love. If I viewed grief as a problem, I’d still be sitting in a dark, grey house in Seattle counting raindrops.
If it were up to me, I would eliminate “problem” from the dictionary. Instead I would replace it with possibilities and gifts. Just think of a world without problems. One that instead focused on possibilities. One that was so full of light that our communities grew stronger. We supported and celebrated one another for our amazing talents and abilities.
This conversation starts with you, my community. Conversations gain momentum and then birth a new light. A new consciousness. A new way of thinking and a way to show up in the world.
Leadership starts in small groups. It moves slowly, gaining momentum and creating sustainable change. In you, in me, in everyone we surround ourselves with. I challenge you to eliminate  the grief problem from your vocabulary. Use possibilities instead. Notice what shows up for you in the world. When you find yourself slipping into that old verbiage, stop and reframe.
Changing your perspective, one that you may not even be aware of, will shift things in your world. It shifted mine.

Grey Matter

A friend of mine is a bird scientist. Her professional world consists of black and white, yes and no, true or false. As someone who is passionate about saving the planet she often goes against the status quo. While she sees the benefit of one side and the other in a given situation, she feels stuck.

Imagine, living a life in only white or black. Only one or the other.

What happens when you meet the in between? Someone or something that doesn’t fit in one side or the other. It’s in the grey matter. And often, sitting in that grey matter is where peace and calm happens. Acceptance. Open space. A breath of fresh air.

Suddenly the weight lifted from her voice. She had an AHA! moment. A shift in perspective. By allowing grey to exist, she didn’t have to choose between one or the other. She could allow for the beauty of both sides while holding space somewhere in the middle.

What a great reminder that we should all allow for a little more grey matter in our lives. That sometimes choosing a happy medium will save us from internal struggle between what’s “right” or “wrong.”

Grey matters.

 

Holiday Decisions

The holidays are here. The Christmas lights are being hung around the neighborhood, houses decorated with holiday decor, friends and families gathering to celebrate another year of gratitude, another year that has quickly passed. A customer came into the Market the other day and said his light hanging ritual began today. Curious, I asked how many lights he hangs and although he didn’t have a number, he did mention it takes him 9 days to hang them. Impressive!

So whatever it is that you do each year to celebrate the holidays, hang lights, bake cookies, watch football, drink eggnog – know that you are not alone in your quest to make this a memorable holiday season. And if there are things you want to change – your approach to handling the in-laws, the intricate web of family relationships, the repeat circumstances of overeating pumpkin pie – now is the time to do so. Create the life you want to live.

And great news! I am ready to help you get there. Together we will examine a place where you are feeling stuck, your perspective and explore other approaches. We’ll brainstorm action ideas from a resonate perspective and have you commit to a plan of action. Talk about feeling empowered and ready to tackle the holidays!

I look forward to hearing from you and helping you realize change.

 

With lots of love,

ImageJennifer and Makiah

 

 

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When’s the last time you took stock of the balance in your life? Are you abundant in one area and lacking in another? Does spending time with family and friends recharge your batteries but your career leaves you stagnant? Do you feel like there’s something bigger out there – something that urges you to take action?

Now is the time. Now is the time to live the life of your dreams. To take action in your life and work on that much needed balance. To empower yourself to put your own wants first for a change and create the ideal life that YOU want.

Some people are born with the ability to chase their dreams. And those are the people I admire most – one’s that go after what sings to their souls with passion and gusto. They inspire us to be bold, to take risks and step out of our comfort zones.

Some people need more nudging, to live the life they’ve always wanted. To open an art store, creating things with their hands, hearts and minds. To align happiness and productivity together. To put their values first and live a life that coincides with them. Where fulfillment and balance go hand in hand along with synergy, optimism and love.

Do you remember your dream? The one that you had as a little kid? The one that got you so excited that you got lost in time? Yeah, that’s the one I’m talking about. The one that may have been lost for some time but now you’re ready. You’re ready to make it become reality.

How? Things are so complicated now with kids, bills, parents, mortgages, obligations and daily routines. You can absolutely create change NOW. You can start today with little steps. Little steps that lead to big change. It may not be sudden or overnight, but with work you can achieve the life you’ve always dreamed of.

Contact me for a sample session. That’s the first step. Together we will begin a journey together and I will coach you toward the life of your dreams. I so look forward to working with you and putting a permanent smile on your face.